1,000 WORDS (2nd attempt): DAY 55: The Lessons You’ve Taught Me.

You make me see that things are not always as they seem, you make me appreciate the power of love, something I never believe in before. You taught me compassion, communion, you helped me to see that so much of my confusion was only a choice. You made me realize that I had a choice, to be free or to keep on struggling in my mental prison, to let go and to allow myself to be loved, to let go of the past that was keeping me down, or to keep on holding on to an illusion of myself. I knew when I met you, that life was providing me with an opportunity which I couldn’t refuse, that God was granting me with a precious gift, one that I couldn’t completely understand at the time, but which I knew, without a doubt, came as a form of divine grace. Such love doesn’t just come unexpected, to someone who doesn’t even believe in the very idea of it. Perhaps deep within I always believed and wanted it, perhaps it was something which was attracted by an intense yet hidden desire. I always wanted a true companion, a woman to share my thoughts with, my ideas on life, to reflect and to build together, to help each other move along through the struggles of life, to listen to her and do support her. I do remember wanting that long ago, my parents were always an amazing example of this for me. As I began to grow, to date, I forgot about this idea, about love and romance, and I saw that people just wanted to party, both guys and girls wanted sex with no commitment. Unconsciously I developed a cynical view of life, since everything seemed so superficial, interactions between people I knew seemed so meaningless, so I decided to join the fun, to allow myself to become caught up in the drama, in the highs and lows of sensual living, I forgot all about ever finding a true life partner, since such an idea simply wasn’t cool. As I began to identify with certain ideas, different from my initial thoughts of love and companion, I began to believe I was an identity, I was a cool dude, I was not about to be chasing any girls down and I was not going to give in to them, I was going to keep it cool and fuck them and leave them, I thought I knew the game. There was no way I was allowing myself to be tied down, how could I if there were so many girls yet to meet, there was so much fun to have still? I never wanted to marry, I also began to take pride in having meaningless sex with as many attractive girls as I could, even when I knew, deep inside, that there was no merit in anything I was doing, that there was really nothing at all to be proud of. All along I craved that deeper connection, and then you came along into my life, completely out of the blue you appeared and stole my heart with your sweet voice. I see now that I was wrong about many things, your simple attitude towards life has convinced me that, even when everything is going wrong, even when everyone around us decides to do only what’s best for them, even then, we should mind our business, we should do our work, we should be ourselves, and we should always be happy about it, we should always do the best we can with the most positive attitude we can bring to the table. You’ve inspired me to become a fighter, before I didn’t see much of a purpose to fight for. I did see many things that were wrong with the world, but a part of me thought they were impossible to change, that life was meaningless because I couldn’t change all the things that were wrong with it. You’ve shown me greater depth than I could previously even imagine, and I thank you and I thank God for it every day, since I know there’s a profound reason for our coming together. I can’t wait to show you new places, which are old to me, and I’ve had a great time during these two years while meeting your family, immediate and extended. Life is great when we are together, you woke me up to the fact that even the most seemingly insignificant details are rich with meaning, that life is no further than here and now, and that we must never let anything get in the way of us being here for those we love and who love us, for being here and now, fully present for them whenever they may need us. You’ve taught me, and you continue teaching me, a lifelong lesson in sacrifice, in putting others before oneself, in working as a team, in making things work together, through proper and honest communication, through restraint on anger and on jumping to conclusions, through sincerity in all situations. You make me smile every day, it’s great to have a person I know I can trust, an embodiment of all that is good and true. You made me see that, before our time together, I had been chasing worthless thrills, I had been living life all wrong. You made me see that there is so much more good within us than we often want to accept, that we often can do much more for others than we wish to acknowledge, lest we feel obligated to do so. You don’t seem to realize it, but your personality has had such an impact on me, your kindness, your radiance and your happiness, they’ve really brightened up my life, I’m so happy to be with you and I can’t wait to see how these virtues continue to grow in you in the future. I wish you the best always, and I pray God blesses you forever, and that we may spend a long, long time together on Earth, and if possible then beyond as well.

To be continued tomorrow, on Day 56.

~ Rebel Spirit

BE YOURSELF. TAKE THE RISK!

be yourself

Train your mind, shape it and show it the way to perform.

Preoccupy yourself with integrity of spirit, not with vanity of physical form.

Train your brain so it won’t have to strain to perceive hidden treasures.

Be an archeologist, able to acknowledge the hidden gems created under life’s pragmatic pressure.

Train your train of thought to be here, not on a distant plane.

Begin by breathing, feeling every blessing fall like refreshing rain.

Just be present in perception, guarded by divine protection.

Appreciate the awesomeness of life and its interconnection.

Be present in the moment; don’t be far away, lost in thought.

Too many of us aren’t living life because we just forgot.

How to live, love and learn: Just trust – to really live you must!

Trust in God, everything of the flesh is fated to dissolve to dust.

Sacrifice the mind’s vice, you know you can do without.

You must demolish ALL doubt. That’s what faith is all about.

Once again, learn to trust, realize you’re on the right route.

Lost and found, found by fate, driving all your demons out.

Everything is in divine order, even when you see a mess.

We are blessed but still insist on drowning in a sea of stress.

Heed my words, Breathe a breath. Life is what you make it, listen:

Everything will be alright, let me quote some words of wisdom.

Suffering is something simple since it happens to us all.

All that’s up to us is whether we get up after we fall.

Act courageously, speak, let your voice be heard.

Shine your light, through art, through verbal or written words.

“The lips of wisdom are closed, except to the ears of understanding”

Speak but don’t be daunted by the mass misunderstanding.

Fools feed on folly, you just play your part, do your thing.

And live every day enveloped in magic that this moment brings.  

Mold your raw material, the substance making up your soul.

Let it go, let it shine upon your mind, the Spirit takes control.

Let your false ideas and corrupt mental conceptions burn

Leave no doubt undefeated, leave no stone unturned.

Be yourself, to the fullest extent, accept whatever consequences.

The shining soul of a soldier, sharpening your spiritual senses.

Learn to see the present as a present, a delightfully divine gift

Cherish it and share it, find a soul you can uplift.

You will find that you won’t even have to try to find the opportunity.

You’ll get plenty of chances if you walk through your community.

See, everybody’s wrong, we’re all trying to survive.

But we can heal, we can guide towards what’s real and alive.

Any chance not taken is a chance completely missed.

A life that could have been forever changed. Take that risk.

Don’t just do the right thing when it seems convenient.

We’re all under control because we’re way too lenient.

We distract ourselves to ignore any uncomfortable fact.

Wouldn’t you rather face your fears, and feel the triumph of coming out intact?

Your vision of perfection lies past your petty personality.

It’s something past prestige, reputation, title, salary.

Just dwell in your integrity, learn to be completely free.

A Rebel to the devil’s tricks, suspended in eternity.

Believing every breath is a gift from above,

Never fazed, haters hate, but lovers are bound to love.

Be open to the universe, even if you feel repressed,

Ridiculed, persecuted and stressed; nevertheless, being yourself is best.

~ REBEL SPIRIT ~