500 WORDS, DAY 1: A Reason to Write?

I’ve been going over some of my old posts on here and it really makes me
want to write again. I always think about it but I end up putting it to the
side. I guess sometimes it just doesn’t seem like there’s a real reason to
write. I mean, I know there’s a reason, but when one can find a reason for
doing absolutely anything in this life, how does one know if that reason is
legitimate? How do I know if I’m truly an artist who can inspire people with my
words, who can provoke deep thoughts, and maybe even change, in the world with
my writing and music, or if I’m just a deluded and confused person pointlessly
writing to the void, making myself feel more important than I really am? I
guess, in the end, it all comes down to how I choose to see myself. I am aware
that what is in my head is no more important than what’s in yours, and
honestly, I think that in itself is a good enough reason for me to write. If we
extend that reality to the past, that would mean that whatever was in any great
philosopher’s brain was also no more important than what is in yours or mine.
They were just people trying to figure life out, this same thing you and I find
ourselves inexplicably immersed in at this very moment. The reason there are so
many philosophical theories as opposed to one agreed-upon philosophical truth
is that we still don’t know what the truth of reality is, and it seems obvious
to me that we will never know for sure. Uncertainty is a fundamental part of
life, whether we like it or not. Does this make philosophy a worthless pursuit?
No, in a deep way uncertainty is all that drives us. Is there much money to be
made in wondering about reality, about the very thing that makes us living
beings, that allows us to even have the experience of wondering, of constantly
questioning, of feeling inspired, of dreaming of all that we perceive as good
and fulfilling? Maybe there’s not much money to be made in it, but I would say it’s a very
rich topic nonetheless.

As I mentioned, I don’t think I believe in a definitive answer being found,
but I don’t think it’s useless to search. Although a correct answer might not
be apparent, and although people have always come to believe they have found
the great answer, the questions themselves are the only things for which there’s
no debate, everyone knows that they’ve always been the same. These are the big universal questions I constantly wrestle with, and since you are also human, I know you wrestle
with them as well; maybe only once in a while, or maybe more than I do, but you
do think of these things, and if you don’t think of them then you
subconsciously feel them within you. These are topics which I believe should
always be discussed and explored. Ignoring them and treating them as irrelevant
would be detrimental to us as people. The questions of today are variations of
the questions our ancestors asked in the past. Today, however, we have more
resources at our disposal for exploring these ideas. We have access to the
thoughts of so many historical characters, people who devoted their lives to
thinking and wondering, to exploring the possibilities of what this life means.
We also have new information, found by the scholars and scientists of today,
which can shed further light on discoveries we only started making in the past.

This post is hopefully the first of many, as it’s part of an experiment I’m taking on starting today, that of posting 500 daily words on my blog, indefinitely.

This goal is a variation of another one I’ve done before, which was the same, except it was writing 1000 words. I tried it three times, and I’d have to check to know how far along I got into it, but these days, being so busy with music and other things, I’ve decided to shorten the minimum to 500. It should still keep me consistently writing, and I should hopefully do many more days this time, since I don’t need to post as much per day. That’s actually another key difference with this goal. The previous goal required me to write the thousand words on that day, whereas now I just have to post them. I can write ahead as much as I want, so I can comfortably divide my writing into paragraphs and post just about the number of words I need per day.

Since I’m gonna be writing mostly in a stream-of-consciousness fashion, I’ll probably start writing each day by going off where I left off the previous day, so if you’re interested in following along and seeing where my mind takes me during this experiment, make sure to read these in order. See y’all tomorrow then!

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