August 11th, 2024. I don’t know if those count as three words, let me check. Yeah, according to Microsoft Word they do count as words. Nice, three words in, yay! If you’ve read some of my previous posts that start like this you might imagine that I’m facing some sort of writing problem, leading me to use today’s date in order to fill up words of my daily post, and, unfortunately, you would be right. It’s not so much that I don’t have anything to write about, but more of a situation of having too much to write about, to the point that it becomes so overwhelming that I have no idea how to structure it in order to really bring it to life, and it makes me wonder if what I have to write about is even worth putting into words in the first place, or if this daily blogging series is even the right medium to use to convey what I want to say. I guess today is just one of those weird days when I just question my whole existence, from my way of life to my whole way of thinking, and I start wondering just what the hell I’m even doing on this planet. Who am I making this post for? Is there a purpose behind it or am I just writing for the sake of writing; in other words, writing for no real reason? As I write this, I realize I’ve gone over this dilemma before, but since it’s coming up to the surface again, it’s obviously still floating around in my mind, and I can’t find peace when it comes to this subject. Since I’ve been keeping up with my daily blog goal for a bit over a month now, though, I don’t want to give in to what I’m feeling and fail it, so even if my mood is weird, I’m going to sit here and write until I have enough words. I guess for now I’ll just write about some of the things that are at the forefront of my mind right now. Well, for one, today is a no-weed day. If it’s your first time reading one of my posts, you are probably not aware of the fact that I’ve been a stoner for over a decade, and that I can admit to being truly addicted to weed. I started blazing when I was about 13, and by 15 it was a daily activity, smoking multiple times a day. This went on for all of my adolescent life as well as into adulthood, and it wasn’t until I turned 26 or 27, about three years ago, that I really started getting paranoid about the possible effects of excessive smoking on my overall health. I’m proud to say that, since around that age, I’ve started really cutting back on smoking, to the point that I’ve only smoked weed about five times throughout this whole year. This doesn’t mean I’ve been sober, though. I live in Canada, and now that weed is legal here, one can find all kinds of weed products everywhere, and since I’ve gotten paranoid about smoking, I’ve basically switched to edibles during the last few years. The high is stronger and it lasts longer, so it hasn’t been too hard to fully transition over from smoking, but I do have to admit that I often find myself reminiscing on my early days with weed, days when I couldn’t wait to escape from the problems going on at home, to just find a quiet spot outside to sit down and start rolling my weed, and the magical feeling that would accompany those first few drags from a joint, as I watched the smoke float up in the air, immersed in a nostalgic feeling, thinking about anything and everything. Either way though, I’m glad that I’ve pretty much quit smoking, except for rare special occasions. I have also been wanting to cut down on weed in general for a while, although I have no intention of letting it go for good. I have a goal in place since the beginning of July. There’s only one rule to this goal, that I can get baked from midnight to midnight, every other day. I know I’m still basically high for half of my week, and therefore half of my life, but it’s a big change considering that I’ve been high pretty much every day of my life since I was a teen. I’ll write more about this for tomorrow’s post, since, now that I’ve started writing about it, I feel like going deeper into the topic and just laying everything out on the table, so to speak. I appreciate you reading this, and I wish you all the best.
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