Today is the 38th day of me posting at least 500 words on here. When I first introduced this experiment, I mentioned that my intention was to write as much as I could ahead of time so I wouldn’t necessarily have to write 500 words a day, just as long as I posted 500 words a day on here. Unfortunately, things haven’t really gone as planned, so I’ve basically been writing each post on the day of its release, including today’s post. It’s funny how, although in my mind I see so many interesting places my writing could take us, in reality we haven’t been able to escape the topic of time and just how difficult it is to properly deal with it. It seems like time, although equivalent with life itself in a way, is always in the way of truly living. I often struggle with the concept of finding the correct way of structuring my time, and I think that the frustration that comes along with that is one of the biggest reasons why we, in general, have accepted the idea that we have to go to school, then to college or university, and that we have to get a 9-to-5 job with a schedule that we have to follow exactly as it’s laid out. It really seems to me like we are afraid of owning our own lives, like we are intimidated by just how much time we have, and by the very real possibility of utterly wasting it, which would be equivalent to wasting our lives away.
We are afraid of how long life is, of how remote and unknown the future seems, and yet we are also terrified of how short and fleeting it is, of how little control over it we have, of the fact that it could be taken from us at any moment without our consent. Basically, it seems like we are afraid of taking full responsibility of our lives, and this makes it very comforting to belong to an organization or a company that has daily tasks, usually very repetitive and easy ones, laid out for us each day. We don’t have to think too much, we just have to do what we are asked to do every day, and we will receive a check at the end of every two-week cycle. We are contributing and we are making money, therefore there is no need to worry, we just need to keep going through the motions. What happens, though, when you don’t have such a structure in your life? Let’s say that you agree with me, that most jobs are a waste of our time on earth. Fuck work. Okay, so what now? What’s the next step? Without a job, how do you go about finding value in your life? How do you make sure you don’t become discouraged, as you watch other people around you working, making money, buying products, cars or houses, having children, travelling, basically doing all the normal things that make up most people’s lives? Well, just because it’s hard doesn’t mean it can’t be done, but it will definitely require more effort and drive than most people are ready for, especially if they have become completely accustomed to the traditional idea of work, and if they have spent some years in that environment already, which is the case for most people.
I’ll continue this topic tomorrow though. I appreciate you taking the time to read this.
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